All You Need Is Love

Mood: Tired, but happy.
Time: 10:40 PM

The nights here are beautiful. I had to put on PJ bottoms because it got so chilly outside. I turned off the lights, grabbed a good dark beer, turned a chair around on the porch and looked out into the backyard and into the sky. What did I see? I saw a backyard glimmering with lightning bugs and a night sky shimmering with stars. I haven't seen that many lightning bugs in so long. What made the night even better was being on the phone with someone wonderful. I love people who you can talk to about just about anything and in an intelligent way. Especially when there is also humor as well.

There is nothing wrong with smiling like a moron.

Feeling(s): lonely, tired, annoyed, but overall pretty good
Time: 12:54 PM

So, it's been awhile since I updated and a lot has happened. Johnny apparently falls more in love with Gabby each day and I'm annoyed with him so I'm trying not to talk to him. Brian is still with Ash, yet we're talking to each other again. I met this guy Luke who I slept with then decided to tell me that I had too much baggage (he dated some chick for 3 days just a few days after me). People are very annoying.

Johnny and I talked and hung out for about 4 hours Friday night cause he needed a ride back to his car. We had a 30 minute hug and more tears. The next day I was told him and Gabby were unfriending me from facebook. People suck. It's lovely to hear that someone still cares about you as a person and wants to be there for you, then they bail.

Brian is still a clusterfuck of emotions for me. I still love him, yet I don't know if I still want a future, but if I see myself married witrh kids I still see him. Ugh. (yes, I fall into the category of people suck).

I've been hanging out with a lot of people this summer and it's been great fun. I've been trying to stay out of trouble as much as possible and so far so good basically.

I'm taking up tennis because of my mom and it's a lot of fun. It's nice for the workout and you really can't think about anything but playing, cause if your mind wanders you've missed the ball.

I've met a cool friend and talking to someone has been fun. He's mailing me vinegar based BBQ sauce since apparently I've been missing out on a new and wonderful world of BBQ since I've only had mustard based.

I'm going to Warped Tour at the end of the month and I'm excited. It should be a lot of fun.