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A Very Romantic Weekend

0 comments Posted by Claudia at 10:26 PM

(realized I never finished this or posted it... eh, whatever. here you go)

So I'm in the Thomas Cooper with Johnny trying to do work, but I am so NOT motivated... ugh school sucks so bad. All my work is due by May 5th... and my last exam is April 30th. I want this semester to be freakin over. Thankfully I have been doing well in class though =D




Okay so I am going to recap what happened Saturday and Sunday because they were amazing and I want to be able to look back on this and remember how awesome it was.




Saturday -


Woke up after some really horrible dreams (I hate sleeping alone just for that very reason) and had to get ready for work. I was supposed to work 10-3 but they cut me at 12 because we were dead. I was really happy about it though because that meant seeing Johnny sooner and getting started on the hike earlier!! I met Johnny and Curtis in ruho while they were eating breakfast and trying to combat hangovers from going downtown the night before.


Hike - Johnny and I went back and got ready to go on our hike. We went to Harbison State Park and did the Firebreak Trail (the brown one) which is easy to moderately difficult. It's about 4 miles but we somewhat took a detour to throw away some trash I found and to explore this awesome open field we found - so we ended up walking about 5 miles. The trail was not that hard but I definitely got tired... yea, I'm out of shape, but hopefully that will change this summer. So anyways... I never knew a hike could be as romantic as this one was. For some reason I just felt even more connected to Johnny than ever before. I was just bursting with love and adoration for him. =D After we crossed this creek thing he pulled me into a very tight hug and kiss and my entire body almost hurt, my knees went weak and I lost my breath because I wanted to say "I love you" so bad, but was so damn terrified. The entire rest of the hike I was going back in forth between wanting to say it and losing the courage to. It was amazing though cause we could both see it in each other's eyes and we didn't even have to say anything. We were out hiking for about 2.5 hours and we were definitely tired, yet strangely energized with our feelings for each other. I was so scared though because I've never felt this way before. The last two people I was in love with it was easy to say the first "I love you" (Garrett and Brian). I'm thinking that maybe it's because of what I've been through and how jaded I am with the whole thing... or if this is just a different beast entirely. I'm not sure yet, but I am so curious where this will take us.


Inline skating - So Jackie (Carl's girlfriend) invited me and Johnny out to go skating... haha, really? I haven't done this in years. So to skate it costs $6 but to get inline skates it costs an extra $4. So at first I tried regular skating but hated it caused I felt very boxed it and really sucked at it. SO I decided to pay the extra money and get the inline. But goodness getting those were tough. So first the lady (who had a bitching beard btw) handed me five wheeled short booted inline skates, weird right? Jackie and I had to talk to her and explain that I wanted the higher booted 4 wheeled inlines, haha. That was no easy task. After getting those I realized the second buckle was broken... ugh. But I was not going back to ask for another pair, haha. I definitely had a lot of fun even if I did fall on my knee pretty hard (there's a nasty bruise there now). Carl and I both fell... Johnny didn't and Jackie and her family are all good at it. At least I wasn't the only one to fall! =D


Sharky's - So Matt invited me out to this party he was DJing at Sharky's. It was some guy's 21st birthday and he rented out the upstairs of Sharky's. OMG it was Greek-tastic. Oliver and Tyler were there too with me and Johnny and it was amusing to watch the drunken Greek shit show. Then, this guy from Dreher was there also, Kevin! It was awesome. We were in English together - there was only 7 of us so it's hard to forget people. It was really great hanging with him too cause he also isn't in Greek life just there to drink and party. Truthfully though I had two mixed drinks and was kinda drunk, lol. I lose my alcohol tolerance after a week and a half of no drinking and hardly any eating. To be honest though that second drink was a double shot and it tasted like a strong mixed shot the entire way through. (cranberry and vodka). I stayed late enough to hear some of Matt's stuff (which I like way better than the guy who just did remixes of popular music) and to see a lot of ass. Those girls (and guys) were CRAZY! Oh Greek life...


Sunday


I woke up a little hung over, but had to get ready to leave by 11 o'clock. We decided we couldn't go to church the night before because my mom didn't think we'd have time. (Why we decided we could go out the night before). So we drove up to Charlotte with my family to see Turandot put on by the Carolina Opera Company. =D It was soooo good. It was amazing to see Nessun Dorma live. wow. I got chill bumps.


 

You Have A The Sense That You Were Born With...

0 comments Posted by Claudia at 5:28 PM

You'll Find A Way To Make Things Right.


Okay, so from previous posts you know that my parents are divorced and I am not really on speaking terms with my father. Well Now he has been demoted back down to sperm doner. Fuck him.

So he came into town on April 2nd and I knew he'd be here and he knew Kendall wouldn't be here but that I would. He decided to send Kendall an e-mail to remind her he was going to be in town, but while he was here I did not receive an e-mail, a call or even a text message.... lame, right?

Well Kendall decided to e-mail him back and yell at him for the way he treated me cause it was awful. He had no reason not to call me. Well he retorted saying he's dealt with so much disrespect from me, my sister and the rest of my mom's family. Well let's see he filed for separation, had major mood swings, lied to me, and made us sell our house and my ponies before my senior year of HS. And he left us with all of his garbage and shit under the house and in his countless sheds... whatever.

And now my dad is saying all this shit about how he didn't want a separation just that he told mom he went to see a lawyer but didn't say for what.... This blows. I'm so tired of it. It'll be five years on Father's Day. I want it done with.

So now he's saying all this stuff like he didn't ask for a separation that he just told mom he went to a lawyer but didn't say about what and she freaked out on him. Started claiming he said he wants a divorce - so on and so forth. At this point I don't even care. It's too long gone now. It's just so funny that's he's saying this stuff now and not 5 years ago. I waited for so long for an explanation and I never got one. He could have called, sent a letter, just about anything! He didn't he just expected me to follow him along. Ugh. What a dumb bitch. I think I'm just going to e-mail him and tell him I want him out of my life permanently. I am so tired of all of this. I've gotten pretty good with living without him in my life. My daddy is dead anyway. I don't think he even exists in the shell of a person my new "dad" is.

Here's a song dedicated to you!

Rapid Hope Loss - Dashboard Confessional

You called to say you wanted out.
Well, I can't say I blame you now.
Sometimes you've got to fold
before you're found out.
Well thanks for waiting this long to show yourself.

Cause now that I can see you,
I don't think you're worth a second glance.

So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.
So much for your endearing sense of charm, it served you well
and now it's gone and you're wasted on me.

You called to say you wanted out.
Well, I can't say I blame you now.
Sometimes you've got to fold
before you're found out.
Well thanks, thanks for waiting this long to show yourself, show yourself.

Cause now that I can see you,
I don't think you're worth a second glance.

So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.
So much for your endearing sense of charm, it served you well
and now it's gone and you're wasted on me.

I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna give,
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna give,
so much for, so much more

Do what you must if that's what you wish,
I can't be a party to this
You have a sense that you were born with
You'll find a way to make things right.

I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna give
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna give
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna give
so much for, so much more

 

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Topsy - Turvy

0 comments Posted by Claudia at 2:43 PM

So it has definitely been awhile since I last posted - And damn, has a lot happened.

So I'll just start and give a brief overview:
I met a guy.
I cheated on my fiance with him (we made out).
I left my Brian for Johnny (basically).
I have really found myself again and I am SO incredibly happy - it's crazy.
I realized I had changed a lot and lost myself a lot in Brian. (No fun).
I had some good days and bad days... (now just good days and bad moments).
Johnny is AMAZING. He is a nice guy. Normally girls don't go for the "nice" guy... but I did. And I am not sure if I could have appreciated him before now.
I don't really have a set place to live. I was living with Brian - some of my stuff is still there, I have most of my stuff at my grandmother's, and I stay a lot of nights with Johnny.
I got my tongue pierced (it's been a week). I finally got the short bar in. Thank goodness!
Brian met a girl and he seems really happy. I truly think she's better for him than I ever could have been. (I am really happy for him).
I adore Johnny's friends and probably get along better with them than Brian's Charleston friends. (and she gets along well with all of his friends, yay!)
Johnny fits in with my family so well. Him and my sister fight like siblings and my mom loves him. (WOW didn't think she'd ever like someone I was with, haha).
I probably will be moving to Pennsylvania with my family in August... I'll be spending a lot of my summer up there as well. Hopefully, Johnny will be able to come up to. (Each day though I start getting more and more scared and sad about leaving here and him...).

Okay, so that's the basic breakdown of the past month or so...

Right now I'm still waiting for my tongue to heal so I'm not as nervous about it and so I can drink alcohol again, haha.
I'm helping my sister get ready for prom! (She's a freshman going with her senior boyfriend).
I'm stressing about the end of the school year. (AGH!)
I'm SO excited about May because David's (my step-dad) daughter, her husband and their two little girls (2 and 4) are coming into SC from Russia! The girls have never been to the states and they will be spending 2 weeks in Hilton head and 2 weeks in Garden City! I am so excited to share America things with them and also to let them experience the warm weather of the beach in SC!! (No joke it's getting me through to the end ofthe semester).
I'm going to see Turnadot with my family and Johnny Sunday and I am so excited to share with him an opera! Oh, we're also going to my Methodist church in the mornign before because I went with him and his family to his Presbyterian church on Easter. (He had Easter dinner with my family... wow it was hilarious!)
I'm also still trying to get the rest of my stuff out of my old apartment and into my parent's storage unit. It's just tough. (Ugh...)

So that's what is going on now.

On a side note I hate my dad even more. He texted me a few weeks before he was going to be coming into town to let me know. I texted him back to let him know I would be in town but my mom and sister would not be. He said that was fine. When he came into town April 2nd he sent Kendall an e-mail to let her know and I did not even receive a text message... Yea he's a ass. He only calls me when he's in town so I can bring Kendall by and not my mom. What a fucking asshole. Really? Apparently I really do not matter to him. And I wonder why I'm so bitter about marriage and such. Fuck him.


Well that's about it for now. Hopefully I'll start to post more so I can keep up with the next few months before I move. I know it'll be wonderufl to look back on. I am so excited about the rest of my time here... no joke.

Much Love,
Claudia

 

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